Jacked Up

Everywhere I turn I run into Jesus sending people, calling people. Jacked up, not worthy, sinners to advance His message. A message a love, grace, mercy, and acceptance.

In Judges, Jesus chooses an afraid kid, Gideon, hiding in a rock. He tells him to go, fight. And that he already possesses the goods to do it. The Gospels are full of calling. Paul was beaten up by the sun. Peter would deny Jesus to his face yet was still commissioned to be the church. In Numbers the spies sent into The Promised land were scared to occupy the land. They came back and said they’d like to stay where they were. God prolonged their journey by 40 years, sending them back into the dessert because of their disobedience.

I understand that I haven’t literally  been beaten up by the sun or denied Jesus to his face.  But I have. I am hiding in a rock of my uncertainty. I’m so scared to occupy what God has already declared mine. But I can’t, I won’t die in the wilderness and I don’t want to suspend my calling for 40 years because of disobedience. Lord I will go, but I’m bringing all of me, my uncertainty, my fears, my failures. For I would rather go with all of me, all of my jacked-upness, than stay and forfeit the perfectness of your will. Then again, you don’t choose worthy, perfect, blameless people.

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Boston Update

I just got back from Boston, MA yesterday. Here were a few highlights and takeaways:

  • I got to introduce my buddy Jordan to the city, it was his first time.
  • We rode bikes around the city. Amazing.
  • We watched the Red Sox destroy the Seattle Mariners at Fenway Park.
  • I snuck away  a couple of the mornings to spend some alone time with God.
  • Boston Brick Red made by Sam Adams. Yum-a-licious.
  • We got to experience the second hottest day in Boston’s recorded history.
  • I felt like God was saying it’s better to fall in love with the people of Boston rather than the city of Boston.
  • Excited to get back to work on Echo Church and this Boston vision.

Bible Blitz

Tomorrow I start my 90 day Bible Blitz. Read through the entire Bible in 90 days. And Go.

Thanks Bruno Mars.

I have 3 beautiful girls. An eight year old who is smart, a six-year-old who is confident, and a four-year old who is funny. All my kids seem to have a pretty high self-esteem, I try to speak life into them by pointing out their strong suits. This is something that I’ve tried to do, with moderate success, their entire lives. I want them to grow up to be strong, confident, break a boy’s arm and not feel bad about it when he’s trying to take advantage of them, world changers. It’s my duty at a father to help shape them into that. However, I’m not always good at seizing the moment. Kellie is though. She told me the other day that Bruno Mars song, Just the Way You Are came on the radio and she sang it to our kids. I thought it was brilliant. So I stole her idea, and just at bedtime tonight, I turned the speakers all the way up and blared that same song. I ran into their rooms and started lip syncing it, complete with a pen as my microphone.

I sang, the chorus individually to each of my girls:

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

I wasn’t totally prepared for what I encountered. Each one locked eyes with me, and I got closer and closer to them, telling them they are amazing, huge smiles were plastered across their faces, and tears where welling up in their eyes. Indeed even an eight, a six and a four-year old needs to be told that they are amazing. Their leaking eyes, made a daddy proud…and possibly filled my eyes too. Tonight I won.

By the way, here’s the song:

An uneasy uncertainty

Today I feel an uneasy uncertainty in my soul. I’m not quite sure why. I didn’t kill anybody or commit any super sin that I’m afraid of getting caught for. I’m not struggling with depression or have a low self-esteem. I can’t really explain it other than I know someone or something is contending for me. I don’t dwell much on the supernatural, but for some reason, today my senses are heightened.

I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a field. To my left are my older much much bigger brothers, to my right are some really really angry dudes. I’m not sure why they are angry, but I can clearly see that their anger is directly funneled toward me. All of a sudden my brothers and these angry dudes are at war. For me. And I have no reason what I did to start all of this. Today I feel an uneasy uncertainty in my soul.

Time to do.

Been thinking a lot about a lot of things. Momentum, first of the year, new things, old things, all things, fat things, change, all things I’d like to do different or keep the same. Just been thinking. I’m tired of dreaming and just thinking. I’m good at dreaming. I’m going to start doing. This year I need to finish some things. I’ve stared a ton in the past 10 years that has never gotten finished. This year I close some chapters. I get some crap done. Time to dream and do.

I’ve been challenged, I’m going to accept the challenge. Read through the Bible in 90 days. This was my buddy Marks’ idea. I’m in. Time to do life together.

Thinking about accepting further challenges. What do you purpose?

Church in the NW

Our family just got back from a week of vacation in the Seattle, WA area. I had the chance on Sunday to visit a couple of churches…yes, I’m a church nerd, I really dig visiting churches in other cities.  So here are my observations:

Seattle Church Observations:

 

•Nursery worker not there 5 minutes before church.
•The lady leading worship busted out in a flute solo, it was awesome.
•The congregation sang in unison…except the lady behind me, but she tried.
•Pastor shared a need of helping tow a car of a single mother. Very cool.
•Worship is done in the dark, because worship isn’t about the musicians.
•Excellent spaces.
•Good coffee.
•Prophecy service, commissioning of leaders night.
•Powerful. Super powerful, brought me back to my pentecostal roots.
•9 month – 3 year process of training leaders.
•Amazing how much they’ve done in 16 years.
•Met the pastor, he gave me his email address, told me if there was anything he could help us out with to let him know.
•Blown away by how good God is.